In the loving memory of Pumpkish Charcoal

Assalam people of Earth..

I dedicate this entry to my dearest baby girl bulus; Pumpkish Charcoal whom have left us, and her earthly existence back to our Creator on 23rd May 2014..

She was hit by a car or motorcycle, perhaps? And she was found in a box with a very tragic condition; her eyes bulged, broken neck and blood all over her.. :'(

An uncle behind our house found her in front of their store, and informed my family about it. Daddy went to see and really surprised to see it was Pumpkish.......... By that time she was already brought by the Angels.. It was a very emotional moment and day for us.. Especially mummy. mummy cried hysterically thinking back how Pumpkish stared after being scold by mummy.. I think she knew her time was about to come.. She kept asking for food to breastfeed her babies. and now... she's no more.. that answers why did she kept purring for food. T_T

It was also hard for me to accept that news. It really was a gloomy Friday. I cried non-stop thinking about her. I know mummy and my sisters were crying all day too. It ain't feel the same anymore.. Even now I am away from home, I can feel her absence.

I don't treat cats as pets.. To me they are family. We treat them like they are one of us, our "children"... Losing her is just the same like I've lost my kid. I can't help crying all day.. Although it has been 2 days. I still am crying whenever i see her pictures, and videos. Those are the things that I have to mend my broken heart.

Pipish - 5 months old

This was taken at our apartments, UCA.. She enjoyed her mischievous day alone there. Conquered all the things that can be played, every single space for her to fit herself to sleep. Life was just too wonderful eh baby?

She was the only one who has wardrobe collection. Look at this, fashion of "mother and daughter".. I remember well how she hated vet. She knows that place is very bad.

I once bought 2 dresses for her.. But too bad that I forgot my baby has grown way bigger than i thought. The dress that I bought just covered quarter of her body.

She may be fierce or out of control. But she was a loving mother. 

Mother daughter boding session.  She had her first baby; Wanda. But Wanda passed away when she was 1mo. This is Oreo.

Those yellow eyes that i can never forget.

"Smile for me, mommy! Don't cry..."

She loves hugging her baby, and now even she had another 4.. she still ensures every each of them gets her love.. but now no more.. no more.. no more.. the babies are now becoming the babies of Donna. Kibby had already spoke to each of them (the big cats). They seems to understand big Sister Pumpkish is gone and they need to pay attention to her babies on her behalf.

 Sigh...

After this there will be no one accompanying me to do my baking.
no one will accompany me cooking in the kitchen.
no one will accompany me to do sewing.
no one will accompany me when i stayed up.
no one will walk us into the kitchen.
no one will sit on my chair when i stood up to get refills.

there will just be no one like you.. T_T



your passing really was a shocking.
i have to accept that no matter what.
i should learn to let you go.


Dear Baby,

Thank you for all the happpiness you gave to us.
You're a blessing.
You will always be remembered in our heart baby girl.
We lovee you always, Pumpkish

Pumpkish Charcoal (Sept 2011 - 23 May 2014)