I've left home for a week already. I went home to accompany daddy as mummy left for Melbourne to attend Oneil's convocation. I didn't tell my friends about my homecoming because I know I would not be able to go out.
Throughout my stay, I had a high fever which I was also lazy to attend my cousin's wedding. (Sorry... Daddy's side are always non click members). As I was sick, same goes to my babies. All of them were infected with flu. I took care and treated them so that they could heal. But not Oscar, my brother in law told me that he looks weak. He wobbles everytime he walks. That tears my heart because he looks very weak compared to the others. He couldn't walk, nor to eat or sleep.
That night brother in law decided to take him to the nearby private clinic. Sister asked me to come along since Oscar wants me to hug him. It was so devastating to hear what the vet had diagnosed; high probably he was infected with some virus that made him lost appetite, weak, drained, low rbc and wbc. The vet suggested to hospitalize but considering the cost, we opt for injections, medication and one week monitoring at home.
We had to feed him to his mouth. Just like a baby. He couldn't eat, poop or pee properly, and he never slept since that day. He was totally restless. Mummy was really surprised to see his condition after comimg back from Melbourne. He couldn't walk and although he has gainned his appetite and mood to play, I noticed he became even more restless. He only tries to sleep when he knew we were on the bed with him. Hard for him to find the right spot. My baby Seka is guarding the places from day to night.
Before I left, I kissed and hugged him. I told him to fight and recover so that we can play together with other siblings. I just thought he was better...
Until this day, 27th March 2016, I was shocked with the news of his passing. It wasn't a news that I look forward to, nor wanting to know. But it really happened, and just then. I came to accept that my baby is gone.. He left in his momy mna's arm.. Momy mnaa is his favorite momy.. I know the bitterness of this news affects my sister more than I do.
Maybe there is a blessing in disguise? We do hope that Seka will pray for momy mnaa to get a better replacement of him; is to get pregnant.. But for me? I only wished that my boy never forgets about us, and waits us There..
Dear Seka..
It's been a hard time for momy to accept the fact that you're no longer alive.. But you will always be alive in our hearts sayang. Momy loves you with all my heart. It's devastating and heart breaking. Allah loves you more that I do and I know, Allah took you to a better place, together with your mummies and siblings. Allah loves you that He ended your pain and suffering. Momy humbly accept this fate and fact as I know, He knows everything best for us.
Sleeptight my boy.. We will miss you dearly. Don't forget us okay baby?
Momy will never stop loving you, son.
Dedicated to my boy,
Oseka / Oscar,
May 2014 - 27th March 2016.
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