second april sixteen

I've been feeling a bit lonely lately, which I feel like it's best to keep everything to myself. A bit crappy and moody, maybe I am a bit pressure because time is running out.. If you know what I mean?

Just to reminisce parents' special day.. Alhamdulillah, they celebrated their 40th wedding anniversary on 14th March 2016, been together since 1976. *Oh I really want to print out cute tees for them. I'm sure it going to be adorable, right?*

So actually mummy left for Melbourne on 14th March so celebrated a day advance. Small gathering with parents and siblings is definitely my happy pill. I know each of us busy growing up that we really forgot about parents getting old, and sick. I forgot that parents do not stay young forever, like us. And each time when I look at them, I won't realize there were tears rolling down on my cheeks. It's been 40 years of togetherness, and sometimes they act like small kids. I know, it's the turning point. You will see yourself in them and you cannot brag, because that how you were once upon time.

despite of ups and downs, parents stick by each side.. Mummy has been daddy's greatest supporter and I must say, she is the backbone of the whole family.

A friend told me that when your marriage gets older, it is more about responsibilities and no more love.. I totally disagree with this, because I still see the love sparks between my parents. 

It was before mummy left for Melbourne. daddy looks happy to have mummy by his side.

When mummy left for Melbourne, daddy didn't show us he cried. Of course, I was the one was so lucky to see him cry.. Not making fun but deep down, you can feel their love so strong. Daddy was sick throughout mummy's departure for Melbourne and he recovered when mummy came back. I must say that is the power of love.

oh Allah, please keep my parents together till the end, and please grant them the highest place in Jannah. i love you both mummy daddy.. Happy 40th anniversary from us.. Love till the end.

i really wish to be like my parents too, insyaAllah.

i guess will "lepak" more in blogspot after this. why? because i feel safe sharing here and i don't feel like telling one by one how i feel. other people has their own problem too, which i perceive as entertaining our problem gives them extra headache. hahaha. *joke*